Day Eighty

Me Again

Hello everyone and thanx again for bailing me out of my despair, I don't mean to let this happen to me and at times it doesn't get to me, but the last few weeks have taken there toll on me.
Went to Psychologist today and let it all out, how i have been feeling and thinking, something i maybe should have done some time ago, in regards to TX, afterwards i felt much better and less guilt on my behalf.

Came home and just slept like a baby, probably from release of emotions and stuff, that had been on my mind for some time had a steak for tea tonight and actually tasted it abit, Still having my health drinks and have started back into drinking water seriously again now, guess i got a bit lax and slowly stopped drinking it, I think sometimes that i cant do this, but then I think of others worse off then me and kick my self up the butt and tell myself to get on with it.

I can feel myself coming out of this bad patch tonight and if its like the last 3 weeks , the next few days will be OK, so i am hoping this will be the case. Funny how the meds play with your head as well, sometimes i feel like a different person altogether, and wonder what i will be like after TX, will just have to wait and see.
My cough is easing now and at least i am getting some rest from it, so all in all, a much better time tonight.....

Stay Strong and keep well

John